Recently, I was having a discussion with someone close to me, and I was doing some self-evaluation, trying to figure out the reason behind a decision I made. This person asked if it was possibly due to self-esteem or self-worth; to which I immediately replied adamantly, that it was neither. I may not have known exactly what it was at that moment, but I knew for sure it wasn’t either of those. Fast forward to two days later… I heard the Holy Spirit whisper, “Insufficient Faith.”
Insufficient – not enough, inadequate
Faith – complete trust or confidence in someone or something
Translation: I know God CAN do it. I’ve seen God do it for others. If I’m brutally honest, I’ve seen God do it for people who (in my carnal critical opinion) don’t even think about or acknowledge Him as much as I do. But, there’s still a part of me that thinks it’s just me for which He hasn’t done it. It’s not that I don’t have faith. I have faith for everyone else, and I have faith in every other area of my life. I just don’t have enough faith in this one particular area for myself; and if I’m not careful, that “Insufficient Faith” could cause me to try to do it in my own strength, or even worse, settle for less than God’s Best for me – simply because I didn’t have enough faith to trust Him and wait patiently on Him – in His timing. Whew, that’s the scary part!
Did I mention this particular area where my faith is inadequate is subsequently the place where I have experienced the most disappointment? Yeah, so there’s that. Could it be that’s why my faith is “Insufficient?” I won’t say it’s non-existent or depleted because there are moments where I will try to muster up a little faith in this area. But as soon as it starts to look like it’s not going to work, I’m reminded of all the other times that it didn’t work – all the other disappointments – and I get anxious and nervous, and I begin to doubt.
Does this sound familiar? Can you relate? Be honest. Good, I’m not alone.
So, what’s the solution?
It is written: “But you, dear friends, must build up your lives ever more strongly upon the foundation of our holy faith, learning to pray in the power and strength of the Holy Spirit (Jude TLB).”
We have to remind ourselves of every time God did answer our prayers. Remembering the times we couldn’t see how He was going to do it, but He did. “The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever (Psalm 23 KJV).”
We have to remind God of His Promises concerning us. “Lord, never forget the promises you’ve made to me, for they are my hope and confidence (Psalm 119:49 TPT).”
So, That Settles It. I know. I know. I know. It sounds ungrateful or even entitled; and maybe there is a hint of that. But God has done so many other great things (for which we are truly grateful), why not this ONE thing? But, when all else fails, we just have to boldly declare, like Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, “Our God is able…but even if He doesn’t… (Daniel 3).” This has to be our resolve; that we will still trust Him, even if He doesn’t – that’s how we overcome “Insufficient Faith.”